I never thought I would be a mom of 3 girls. To be honest, I've always pictured myself as having little boys who adored me. There was something about having a boy that has always been a desire of my heart. I just have a soft spot for the mother-son relationship.
With this surprise third pregnancy, I thought maybe God was granting me my desire. I've always prayed for a boy and have felt very strongly that I would have one. So I thought for sure this unexpected miracle was God's gift of a son to me. As we sat in the ultra sound room I told myself I didn't care either way, of course I was lying. And when the technician said, "It's a GIRL!" My heart sank, I had mixed feelings immediately. The mom in me said don't for a second let that baby know that you are disappointed that she is a girl. And the human part of me, began to cry. I couldn't help it, a wave of disappointment that I would never have a little boy just flooded my emotions. I felt like an awful mom for even feeling that way.
Over the course of a few weeks I convinced myself that I was excited to have three little girls. But I don't think I really felt it until several weeks ago. I remember sitting at home thinking about decorating the babies room and all of a sudden I felt God's pleasure on this baby girl. Her name and everything about her just began to spark excitement in me. Then like a breath of revelation from heaven it hit me. God had specifically chosen me to raise three powerful women.
Think about it, since as far back as I can think, having a boy has always been the goal. Kings would kill their queens if they couldn't produce a boy. The boy carries the family name, the legacy essentially. And even to this day in some countries the girls are disregarded and even sold; there is a lack of value for them. For centuries women have fought for their rights not only in our country but around the world. And in many places it is still common and accepted for women to be oppressed.
I am grateful to live in a country where women's voices, thoughts, opinions and talents are valued. And although, we have come a long way, there is still mindsets that would demean women. With this past election, a massive women's movement was sparked. Regardless of your thoughts on the issues at hand, I personally couldn't have been more proud. I didn't agree with everything that the "March" represented, I in fact didn't march. But I was proud to live in a country and time that a woman's voice could be heard. That our freedoms could be exercised. The fact that regardless of what you believe, women who were passionate about their rights, didn't have to be silent. This is not meant to be a political post, and to clear up any misunderstandings, I am Pro-life. The point I'm trying to make is this, I have 3 girls that I get to raise up to be strong, opinionated, powerful women who know their voice matters.
Growing up myself, I never felt like I had much of a voice. I always felt less then and had situations in my life tell me that no one wanted to really know how I felt. I was left to always go with the popular opinion of those around me. Not until my thirties did I realize I actually had value in my words and opinions. I began to value my own authentic thoughts on issues. Whether my opinions are right or wrong, I was no longer afraid to voice them, even if all my friends felt differently. I realized I had a voice. My goal is raise my girls to have a voice, to not feel ashamed to stand up for what they believe is right, to demand respect and dignity. My goal as a mom is to raise women who support each other and believe in equality and love for all. Women who know they are capable of anything and can accomplish anything that is in their heart.
Being a mom of 3 girls has changed my perspective. I am now excited to have the chance to raise three women who could continue to break glass ceilings and show the world that women are powerful, strong, and should be treated with dignity and respect. I am so proud to be a girl mom. And with this new one, I know she will be one fireball who is going to take this world by storm, right along with her sisters. So here's to all the Girl Moms out there raising the next generation of world changers.